December 30, 2011

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for you.

enter the new year with love.
my cover of "Hear The Noise That Moves So Soft and Low"
by James Vincent McMorrow
enjoy. x
I have good reason for the couple days of absence on here.

Big news, too.

I know, pretty crazy. This will be the 2nd "move" on my own. My first was out of my mom's house and into the city. It's been 2 1/2 years of living on my own, paying my own bills, cleaning my own house, making my own meals, and living in this little flat- alone. There's nothing about the move that I regret. It's been an amazing little nook for me and I will cherish every memory I've had in it. Believe it or not, there are more than I would've guessed: celebrated holidays with the family, crazy random sleepovers with best friends, movie nights, hosted my ex-boy, got to know the elderly neighbor next door who; before moving out would wake me up every morning by playing his trombone, bought new pieces of furniture, the haven of escape this place was after months of touring at a time, repainting, christmas cookie parties, nights into the wee hours of the morning filled with music and wine... such fabulous memories. And although I'm leaving, those memories never will.

I realized I had a lot more stuff than I thought. I'm by no means a pack-rat. In fact, I'm the 'queen of deep cleans.' The feeling of getting rid of stuff you never use or need, is something I thoroughly enjoy. But my friend told me, "you never know how much you have, until you start packing it up." And she was right. I'm a girl though. I collect mugs, and have a fetish for one of kind pieces. Plus, I have a piano.
But after all of the packing up that we accomplished in a mere 2 hours, and the 3 men who came to the rescue for mom and I, we loaded her up.
So I say, farewell L.A. You will always be home. 
(And I will visit you more than you think) & HELLO to Northern California! 

More photos of my new destination 

December 28, 2011

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so good. be blessed, friends.
I am here. Do not need feeling too much. To ask for feeling too much is to ask for a sign, and then the answer is the same as that I gave when on Earth. "There shall no sign be given but the sign of the prophet Jonas...For Jonas was three days and three nights... so shall the Son of Man be three days and three nights in the heart of the earth." Veiled from sight to the unbeliever.  To the believer the veiling is only temporary, to be followed by a glorious Resurrection... What does it matter what you feel? What matters is what I am, was, and ever shall be to you - A Risen Lord any passing mood of yours--- upon a change of circumstances, upon a mere trifle. I am uninfluenced by circumstances... My Promise is kept. I am here, one with you in tender loving friendship." - Russel

December 26, 2011

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I can hardly believe that 2012 is 6 days away.

Instead of a list of resolutions, i'll just jot down a few things i'd like to do/accomplish.
The word resolution, carries such judgement if it doesn't get accomplished, don't you think? me too.

2012 like to do's :
: make my new place feel like home
: learn 10 new recipes for homemade dinners
: see Bon Iver live
: meet Justin Vernon
: return my lease, and buy a car (love you Towson)
: stop biting my nails
: read the 4 gospels
: sleep on the beach
: meet James Vincent McMorrow
: get a dog
: make a new record
: aim for consistency
: fill up my new journal and current
: fly out of state at least 6 times
: play truth or dare
: go to the Midwest
: go to a place i've never been
: buy a juicer (maybe)
: give up something for 30 days
: be asked to be someone's valentine
: be in a friend's wedding (get a move on it, folks) (JANUARY 7th!!!!!!! CHELS IS ENGAGED!)
: buy a film camera
: take a train somewhere far
: sing with Dave Matthews (a girl can dream)
: mend something that was broken

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"i don't believe that anybody feels the way i do about you now..."
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from someone special 
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i'm a day late, i know. sowwwy.

December 24, 2011

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i miss you, and you know it.

December 23, 2011

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"Your artistic sensitivity, intuition, and imagination are stimulated. A fleeting impression or intuition is apt to be correct." 
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December 18, 2011

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 At this time you must guard against being too aggressive, coming on too strong, or trying to force your own will and thereby arousing hostility in others. Also, frustrated desires and obstacles to achieving your aims can evoke enormous anger in you, and you may do something rash and regrettable. Conflicts and confrontations may be unavoidable, but do try to avoid situations which you know will provoke or irritate you. Working alone is best at this time.

i swear, sometimes this thing is just SPOT ON.
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uhm, amazing.
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can't lie, i've got a thing for creative light fixtures.
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December 13, 2011

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Fullness of Joy. The Joy of Perpetual Guidance. The Joy of knowing that every detail of your lives is planned by Me, but planned with a wealth of tenderness and Love. Wait for Guidance in every step. Wait to be shown My Way. The thought of this loving leading should give you great Joy. All the responsibility of Life taken off your shoulders. All its business worry taken off your shoulders. It is indeed a Joy for you to feel so free and yet so planned for. Oh! The wonder of this a God-guided life. To think anything impossible in such circumstances is to say it can not be done by me. To say that is surely a denial of Me.
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each point is attached and carrying a structure

December 11, 2011

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Hydrangeas. 2nd favorite.
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Peonies. my absolute favorite.
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ha, awesome.

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my sister Ebony (above) sent me this photo in a text this a.m
not sure a couple can get any cuter.

December 10, 2011

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today is a magnificent day. my brother Max is now a married man.
gosh, i just love weddings.

Max + Hailey Hoffman, ladies and gents...

December 9, 2011

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All men seek for Me, but all men do not know what they want. They are seeking because they are dissatisfied without realizing that I am the Object of their quest. Count it your greatest joy to be the means, by your lives, sufferings, words, and love, to prove to the questing ones you know that their search would end when they saw Me. Profit by My Example. I left  My work-seemingly the greatest work- that of saving souls, to seek communion with My Father. Did I know perhaps that with many it was idle curiosity? Did I know that there must be no rush into the Kingdom, that the still small voice, not the shoutings of a mob, would alone persuade men I was the Son of God? Why be surrounded by multitudes if the multitudes were not really desiring the learn from, and to follow, Me? Follow the Christ into the quiet places of prayer.
 - Russell
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you said "we're different"
i said "cupid, killed his aim"
where did we go? where's all that fire for our flame?
we made promises, crossed hearts, hope to die
but sometimes love slips up
sometimes our skin isn't thick enough
sometimes we make mistakes
silly mistakes
we were in love, tell me how it goes again?
these days we say we're doing fine
so good at playing pretend
we were in love
life wasn't worth living apart
now you can't even look me in the eye
they say 'that's where the truth lies'
i don't know why
i'm still writing songs about you
still singing' about you
my heart is tired, its been up so late
my heart is tired of dreaming
don't know why i'm awake
one day you'll hear my words and they'll never leave you
one day you'll hear these words of mine
and have to face the truth
sometimes love slips up
drowning in loving something too much
sometimes our skin isn't quite thick enough
sometimes we make mistakes

but sometimes love can break its fall
and true love, can see past it all
says 'no matter what happens we will never break'
love never goes away
truth is, you never go

© 2011
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"Acting on impulse, changing your usual routine, improvising, and using intuition rather than following a prescribed logical way of doing things is called for now. The tempo of your life accelerates now. Expect  a rather inconstant, unpredictable, but interesting time."

 i mean, c'mon.
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December 6, 2011

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This month is bound to be extremely, extremely, extremely, (and a few more extremely's) interesting.

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a new demo, as promised...
Back To Today written and preformed by Yours truly
produced by Evan Taubenfeld.
enjoy, and let me know what you think! x

December 1, 2011

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This wind is going to rip off my bedroom window.
I just know it. Gone, just like that. And it'll probably take me with it. And then I will freeze. And cry.

My neighbor's have lost a mirror or two already to prove it

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A place to flee to, a sanctuary. An escape from misunderstandings, from yourself. You can get away from others into the quiet of your own being, but from yourself, from the sense of your failure, your weakness, your sins and shortcomings, whither can you flee?
To the Eternal God, your refuge. Til in His Immensity you forget your smallness, meanness, limitations. Til the relief of safety merges into Joy of appreciation of your refuge, and you absorb the Divine, and absorbing gain strength to conquer. - Russell
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I heard an amazing parable that a man spoke who converted from living a life of Confucius beliefs to living a life following after Jesus.

A poor, filthy, man covered in dirty wounds, scabs and rashes, fell into a deep, deep dark hole in the ground, and had no way to get out. He had been trying for many, many years and couldn't seem to find a way out.
Confucius sees him and says "Oh, poor man" and continues walking.
Buddha sees him and says "Oh, poor man, if only you would have followed all of my rules and traditions" and continues walking.
Jesus sees him and says "Oh, poor man" and jumps into the pit to save him.

November 29, 2011

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So I have a confession: I'm kind of a goodwill junkie. I just love it. I love thrift & finding amazing things for dirt cheap. And I love things that no one else has, you know... the unique tasty stuff. I went on a hunt for some goods with my bestie KCapri, to my secret spot, with no intention of looking for anything specific, and landed on these finds. I must say, I left with a huge grin on my face.

GOOD #1: YvesSaintLaurent luggage piece (Original)
I know. I couldn't believe it either. How was this in someone's junk/give away pile?!
I'm not usually one for big name brand things. I'm a simple girl at heart, and when I see something I love, i buy it, no matter where it's from. But this just happened to be an incredible steal. Still can't believe it.

can. not. believe. it.
GOOD #2: Snowland boots
Theeeeeeese!! I saw these, and I about died. UGG, as much as I love you... you don't have a pair of boots like these. 
They zip up on the back to wear them high or take them down. Treats, I tell you! Treats.
I will wear these, rain or shine because they're that awesome.

GOOD #3: SELVY & CO. rain coat
This is literally one of the coolest coats I've ever seen, and tried on. No joke. 
Annnnnd if you want, you can reverse it. Awesome? I think yes.